Illuminating Spirit

Wow!  I haven’t writen in the last several weeks.  I really had planned to begin being more on top of this bloging but so much has happened since I last wrote.  For one my dad  who I am very close to and love dearly was diagnosed with cancer early in September.  The last of the test are being run so it is still unknown as to how severe it is.  Something should be know within the week.  The bone scan came back negative so it is known that it hasn’t spread to the bones.  My family and I fully believe that the prognosis will be good and that he will only require to have seeds of radiation planted to eradicate the prostrate cancer at most.  The other major thing that has occured is that my beloved companion my dog Jasper transitioned on September 14th. 2007 at aproximately 2:30 pm in the afternoon.    Jasper had fullfilled one of his life’s purposes which was to lead me to work with animals.  He went with me in August to take the first level of Healing Touch with Animals.  It was through our love of each other and our phenominal connection that it brought me back to a love that I had held in my heart and soul as a very young child which is to work with animals.  I actually, think I came into this world with the love of animals.  I was very close as a baby I have been told with the family dog named Wolf.  I had health problems as a baby and l became very easily overwhelmed with life and I would withdraw within a shell.  Wolf and animals in general could really bring me out of that shell.  With them I felt safe, loved and accepted for exactly who I am.  With people I often felt like I didn’t live up their expectations.  I was told by my therapist Dana at a one day workshop she had this past Saturday that I attended called Connecting to The Source Within that our concept of ourselves is developed within the first eighteen months of our live.  At eighteen months I had a bone age study of a nine month old baby.  I had completely stopped growing.  Which as a result my self concept was that I am not enough, that I am not worthy, that I am inadequate and on and on…  I have healed a huge amount of these beliefs and I have worked hard on my personal transformation.  But here I am going to a much deeper level, clearing and healing.  It is our thoughts and beliefs that affect our physical health because we program our cells in a  way to act accordingly and as you can imagine since this is up for a healing my body has really been giving me a hard time.  But I know from experience that this to can pass and my body can heal but I must acknowledge and truly believe that I am perfect just the way I am!!!  I am also going through this process as a result or perhaps in connection with my father “What does this say about me?”  of becoming more independent financially, emotionally with both of my parents and not so dependent on them physically to make my life right.   And perhaps it is time for a man to come in to my life soon, boy it has been a very long time.  Time will tell!  I am precious and deserving of all good thing love, connection with people and animals, successful career, health, wealth, leisure, peace and joy!!!!  This is all for now,will blog again very soon.